feel so not happy with this

recently i dont feel like wanna go back home,
or i dont even want to stay at home,
just wanna be with some one or go some where else rather thn stay at home...
it is because my mum finish her work and come back ad...
not because i dont wan she at home,
just dont know what happen to her,
so 无理取闹,
act she is not the first time like that,
but i start to cnt tahan she like that,
mybe is because i become not so tough compare to previous,
when i told him about what my mum had said to me,
and my feeling after i heard those things,
he told me that "she is ur only mother, have to 忍 her...."
when i heard that,
i really cnt control my tears for rolling down on my face,
i feel so stress, so sad, and so TIRED~
i not din 忍 before seriously,
just time by time,
i feel so tired to do all this thing,
i just hope that i can have a happy family although i had lost my father since i was young,
because i still have my mum and my brother...
but i dont know why they will felt what i did was i should do it for them for no reason...
no matter what i do,
will be the wrong for them,
i will get scold by them although i did the correct way....
in her heart just feel im a naughty girl,
always had a lot events in the college,
and not really studying in the college...
but she dont know the real reason why i had so many event in the college??
i olso dont wan make myself so tired, so stress...
but i wan myself to gain more experience and i wan to gain more money,
i dont wan myself to become ur 负担，
every time u ask me whether i enough pocket money or not,
although i not enough i olso wont let u,
i will go get myself....
this why make me dont feel like going back home,
i feel so stress and tired at home......
you told me that become our mother very tired,
on that time,
i really wan to shout out loud,
I ALSO VERY TIRED!!!
i dont feel like wanna go back home,
i just feel wan to be with you.....
if can,
i really want to be with you ALL THE TIME....><
i not dont love my mum,
i love her,
but she make me feel so tired,
NOW!
you are the only one who care about me,
and the one i wan to be with....
i think you know who you are.....