i need a place to voice out

recently i decide to force myself to do something which is good for him,
i realize that i control him until too tight ad,
i'm so sorry for that...
when i ask u this question,
the answer that u give me i really feel a bit sad....and olso sorry to you.....
although what i decided is not what i want to do,
but it is good for u,
can let u feel relax and not so stress,
i will force myself to do it although i dont want....
i know dis time is a most suffer period for me,
but i wont care about it...
for me,
not important,
what is important for me is...
i want you to be happy...
today whn u r not accompanying me go take car as u already promised me...
at the beginning i really feel angry and sad,
but i olso try to understand you,
inside my heart really feel struggle,
 after struggle,
i will give myself a reason that will make me feel chill down....
HIEW KAI YAN....
you must be a girl friend that will understand him,
not just bringing trouble for him....
you have no choice.... you have do it......
fighthing....